My Guardian Angel

I'm gonna telling you a little bit about my story called "something that really really influence my life"..
So, since all of you are the daddies, i think you should read this..coz it might be also the sound of your daughter's heart too that you'll never know..

ENJOY... :)


Since i was a child, i spend a little time with my dad
My dad always move his feet from this island & ocean to another island, and so on until my 20 something ages

My dad told me, once, when i was 2 or 3 years old, i couldn't remember him AT ALL since he leaved me for a long long time for his patriotic duty.
I cried when he hugged me & i screamed when he kissed me.
But my dad had a miraculous way to bring back my memory about him.
& then he started to wear his white shirt & he smoked in front of me.
and SURPRISINGLY, my mind said "hmmm...well, he must be my dad".
then i ran to him & hugged him just like a kid who meet santa clause.
(hilarious, right..?)

on my 15 ages, he started to put his full-control on me, on my brain & on my personality.
He told me where I have to have my education, started from the choices of high school to my college education.
he COMMANDED me to have a high school at a catholic-homogen school & i did it.
he ORDERED me to have a law school & i did it, though i don't like it very much.

I often sigh-ing because of the way he rules my life without saying many words to me!!!
& i always complained, why he gave me a hard-upbringing to me but we never had enough time to have a daughter-father conversation...

But now, as I'm 22 ages, as i grow up to become a lady, I understand all the reason behind his ordered, his command & his silences.
It takes more than 5 years to understand all the meaningful silence of him.

I realize, we have a conversation less than all daughters do with their daddy.

I only see his face less than 2 days a week

He never tells me how to live

But he always shows me how to live & he let me watched it & learned from it.
That's a very very expensive lessons.

So, no matter how tall I grow up, my dad will always be someone who i look up to.

If there's a BIG gift GOD ever gave to me, it must be MY DAD

21 April 2010

She was born in the middle of war weapon explosion sounds
She’s the older daughter on her family
She says “It’s enough..!!”
Enough to see the suffering of women
whose world is limited only to the house walls

She grew up and saw women struggle
to gain freedom, autonomy
and legal equality
as part of a broader movement

She speaks through words on the books she wrote..
She dreams through the idea of woman emancipation..

Teaches us that “equals” means commensurate
Stands on the same height
Kneeling on the same low

Run, run, run..!! Go catch your dream
But never forget your nature as a woman
Be a smart lady for your family is more important

As she pass away
Many women arises become leader
Her spirit keep burning my women
And that’s the truly beauty

We may never met her
But we know her mission
and we always try to accomplish it

She’s my woman…
She’s Kartini

-tetaplah bermimpi, karena Tuhan akan memeluk mimpimu- (laskar pelangi)